As I chalk out a very decent plan, there are a few things that immediately come to my mind

1. Organising myself and my thought.
2 . Taking care of the little complacency that I get even when I achieve little things.
3. Learning to do work at a brisk pace.
4. Hitting the road of CTM sooner than later.
5. Improvising ways to comunicate better in English by the day.
6. Learning, internalising and leveraging the beauty of Yoga.
7. Extensive reading to think, speak and be better.
8. Beefing up the technical knowledge and insights.
9. Channelising my immense energy and potential as lot of that of mine goes untapped.

These are few bullet points that I need to turn my immediate attention to

That's all blogging for now, time for some action :)

The time has come to put my hands up and make every tick counted. After careful analysis of what's available on the web, I seem quite confident about my the candidature that I can build for an MBA.

Right now the things I should focus on as I plunge ahead into the future are

On the resume boosting front---

A. Strong extra-curriculars
1. Building a strong foundation at toastmasters by contributing immensely to it as a member, officebearer within and outside the clubs as well through educative sessions and the like.
This is one such big opportunity that I can focus highly on and make counted in a big big way.
Target President / VP - Ed by the next time.
2. Technical blog, articles and discussion forums ---> Microsoft MVP

Strong community service
1. Do something innovative to carry on the good work at sneham and contribute to the happenings at sneham, and involve in its activities much more and make it a successful happening.
Telling myself - Remember, the success of me is largely dependent of how successfully I contribute to the proceedings of Sneham.
2. Teaching the underprivileged and the needy.

Quality Work-experience
1. As a Team-lead, should carve a niche by doing something really solid.
( still to be thought-of even more clearly though) ( KM-Prime / Prima award / Best - project award )
2. Things I can boast of and almost done in this section are
a. Most Vaulable player award
b. Power programmer award
c. Best trainee award with 5.0 CGPA.
d. Most Spirited team award
e. Highest KCU award ( if things turn out as expected )

Hobbies.
1. Reading books
2. Yoga and skating.


On building a strong case and further adding innovative ways in refining and executing resume builiding aspects

1. Should re-search all possible sources on
a. Why MBA ? Why now ? and why X b-school
b. Contributions to the B-school.
b. All other possible MBA related questions related to leadership, failures, accomplishments and team-work.
( taken a right step in this direction by ordering for the book in Amazon, need to do a lot of brainstorming in this regard to arrive at a perfect path and picture )

A solid GMAT and TOEFL.
If I get these aspects right as planned, there is no reason why I can't make it to one among the holy trinity.

This broadly covers in an exhaustive way what I was deliberating from a very long time to give a proper shape to my plan for hitting the MBA. I am really happy that I could finally give a very decent shape to that now. :)

Believe me, finally I have something to cheer about and I only hope this blog will turn things all for the better for me unlike the insipid life that it has been so far.

There have been many occasions when I have noticed performers around me and told to myself ! I wish I was one. The intent, the desire, the inspriation, the motivation and the determination hit a high at that moment that I feel like conquering the world. But the same doesn't stay on and this has happened time and again.

I think the route cause for all this problem lies in the fact that the company and the environs that I live in take me away from the reality and thinking so much that I never know what I am doing. In other words, the friends that I have do not contribute to even a pinch of inspiration.
But, why should they, it is bad on my part to expect that frm my friends, coz' they are in no way responsible for my career and future. The fact is that I am losing track due to the all this and I need to find a way out of this. I need to spend more time self-interrospecting and going about doing what I plan and intend to do.

I fail to think, plan and though I do, I fail to materialize all that courtesy the environment is not at all conducive. I have to work hard to change my environment and make things work for me.
I am eagerly looking forward to see myself as a performer that can make me as well as people around me proud !!!

Relying on oneself for all things is never going to let one down and make one feel sorry and bad about anything. It means having the supreme power to do anything within oneself.

But, that can never be as easy as thought of.

I want to transform myself from being a virtual parasite as I am now into a fully independent individual making productive use of time that i have in my hands and persisting with the self belief that it would take me to the desired destination on one fine day...........

Yes, this is what I mean by saying relying on oneself, to grab every single opportunity to realise the dreams and making a calamity also turn into an opportunity is wht is the need of the hour for me.

I really hate to depend on somebody for a better fortune and feel depressed and sorrow whn it is conditional.

I am the master of my destiny and that is how it should be till the end....

Afterall, how can I let a fool take control of my life and be resposible for anything good that happens in my life,

How can I live at the mercy of a fool to change my life all for the better,

The time has come to act and act to shape my destiny.....

Marriage and the company of a girl for the rest of the life to share all happiness and sorrows. The very thought itself invokes a pleasant feeling in my mind.

Isnt it really nice to have a own girl for life, Oh man! I really love that.

Very recently, I lost the best girlfriend of mine who supported me all through for about 3 years.
Was a highly emotional moment for me that dint let me focus on anything for many days. Still I dont seem to be fully recovered from the shock. Sometimes, I remember her so much that I feel like calling her immediately.

To lose somebody with whom ones emotions are shared is really painful and the pain is beyond expression. I am eagerly looking forward to having a beautiful understanding and caring girl for my life with whom I can always spend some nice and sweet moments. That brings back and reminds me of the goal or task I have set for myself in my life. A quality and powerful MBA that can shake and change me all for the better and for the rest of the life, coz' I want to give my beloved life partner a life that will leave her smiling all the way through.

I am pressing for things to happen but they dont seem to be falling in place and though they do, not in a convincing manner. It's simply resulting in restlessness more and more.

I am really desperate sometimes for the things to happen. I really dont find somebody to express all my headaches and issues of this kind. My blog seems to be the best friend sometimes. I really love my blog and feel light at heart when i put my thoughts in it. But do I blog often, No, I dont. There is a serious lack of discipline in things I do. I really dont know when would I learn to do things. Wish there is an end in sight to all my problems.

I want to start feeling comfortable about myself and stamp my presence in many ways than I usually am doing.

At any cost, this journey that I have set out on has to go on, has to stop at many points to think, re-think and introspect myself, prepare a plan for the future, re-visit, re-do and eventually land up where I want to be on one fine day.

I firmly know that I can do all this, but, I have not been motivating myself enough.

Day breaks and day dawns, but the value-add has been minimal for quite many days now.

But, its not going to be so from now on...

Things should start happening from now on...

I am getting very emotional about myself and my future as I write this...

After all, was it not for the sake of this that I have sacrificed many things till now,

Was this not for this that I have been punishing myself to work hard to perform better and better...

And despite this, if that path is getting a beating, I am not going to be a mere spectator.

There are lot of things to be addressed and I am going to take one at a time from now on....

If i cant achieve it, none on earth ever can............

I 'm hating it. Just hating it.

Dreaming of many many things. But failing to materialize any of them.

Where are things going wrong.

I am failing to manage myself, my time, my thinking and everything that it takes to succeed.

Of late, I have found that I ve just been killing time.

There is a lot to be done, lot of ground to cover, lots of goals to chase, a well cut out target to accomplish.

But i ve been lacking clarity on all fronts.

I have not been resolute at all.

Days are passing by, but not much effort being put in.

Yes, I ve achieved quite a few things but none of them has ever given me personal satisfaction.

Then, how can I claim those as my achivements with pride when they dont satisfy me even.

Where am I heading ? No Clarity.

What am I doing ? No clarity.

What have I done ? No clarity as to whether it will take me to my destination ship.

Why all this confusion ? When will all this end ?

I am finding hard fighting with myself...

I feel a deep rooted, highly heated volcano inside me, that doesn't allow me to rest with peace unless I achieve something substantial.

I set out on starting this blog a few months ago and there ended the whole story after a few posts.

Is this kind of attitude of mine ever going to fetch anything ?

Will I end up achieving what I want to, with this kind of attitude?

Discipline has been lacking very clearly in my life...

There is not even a single day, that leaves me satisfied in terms of my contribution to my MBA...

If this continues, I will finish myself, before my mind finishes me with trouble.....

One thing is loud and clear, I have been experiencing extreme uneasiness due to this.....

How nice would it be if I get back to my performing ways again and start moving on with my life...

Its said, its very difficult to make a start.

But I should add, its very difficult to even hold on after having made one.....

It calls for enormous persistence and determination.....

I have to do it, have to do it, have to do it, have to do it, have to do it, have to do it and have to do it coz' I just love it...

Networking with the right people can expedite one's reaching the goal.


The first meeting of SNEHAM happened today.

I met some really nice people, people with real spark in their eyes and great enthusiasm to work for the cause of the society.

That impressed me a lot.


Well, how beautiful the world looks now to me. :-)

Foolish are those who are bored of boredom.

Foolish are those who think there is nothing to work for in life.

Foolish are those who think there is nothing to contribute to.

The world is beautiful because one can fit themselves in various contexts of life and see how the the whole equation changes, eventually.

It made me feel that some people have always got something to offer in terms of learning,
in terms of the way one thinks, in terms of socializing and personality development.

All this makes me feel good and happy.

And it leaves me wondering, Is happiness so easy to attain?

Yes, sometimes happiness seems to be so easy to attain given that one looks at things in the right perspective.

When one is happy, one gets the real drive in life.

And this drive is enough to keep the spirit of life high.

A small baby crying for food, a small boy toiling hard for mere pennies, a little girl working as domestic maid, exposure to the hardships of life at an embryonic age................

The list goes on, on and on.........


Apparently, that is the life of many children who have not even experienced eating to their heart's content, leave well alone the other necessities like clothing, shelter and education.

When one comes across any like the ones described above, the hearts of many of us surely get touched.....

The mind says Oh dear, what a pity it is ! ! !

But do we make any difference......... ? ? ?

The next sight that catches attention draws curtains to the emotional thought that was evoked...


One extra step,

One extra thought,

A sense of humanity,

A touch of love,

A feeling of attachment,

And above all a heartfelt wide smile can be billion dollars to those little ones.

But H O W ?

What lacks in this whole context is a platform to make them feel part of the world and to bring a smile on their little faces in our own little ways.

That is exactly what I got today in SNEHA, a group of volunteers involved in activities with charitable social organizations such as orphanages, homes for the challenged etc.....

And I smiled that I can make somebody smile and inturn smile watching them smile,make them smile and smile ................................................

More smiles per hour.......... :-)

This surely is the TVS Victor of my life......

As a smile that can mitigate somebody's sufferings is always victorious...

I wish many of us can come forward, join hands together and materialise the thoughts in our mind that otherwise get cremated at the thought - level after pitying.

I am going to make a difference. Will u ?

M B A , These three letters have fascinated me enough.

I know this sounds cliche. But that is how it has been.

The fascination is not because that is where money is.

It is also not because I want a switch in my career.

That is where my heart has been right from the beginning and so will it be.

Yes, I know what it takes to be an M B A, a globally recognized and respected M B A, to be precise.

And a human being can accomplish it and why not me ?